It feels windy and painful and beautiful and strong.
Yin and Yang rise and fall in circles spinning round, and the strong wind feels like breathing for the first time. The air burns and refreshes through the throat.
30 minutes meditation were good, I felt the energy running up and down my body and yet it was peaceful and still.
I went up to Calton Hill and felt the wind violent on my skin and enjoyed it.
Emotions are dominant and explosive, the mind is poised and extatic looking at them.
l’m walking on my ice subltle platform in the sky, and I see all these kind people floating all around me and wanting to hold my hands, but I don’t want them to hold my hands. I don’t want kindness. I already have kindness in me.
I want love, desire, passion and understanding of all of me, not only the kind me. I want to see a dangerous waterfall running my way and jump into it. I won’t leave the platform for anything less.
I’ve been offered a waterfall and it crushed me open. I feel like I’m receiving everything and giving out everything. I’m completely defensless and I don’t mind. It feels right.
The walk was good, the meditation was good, and the full moon and the equinox have never been so powerful and the Challenge allows me to feel it in all it’s overwhelming energy.
Life
