Day 11;
Yesterday was not a good night, I was working on the web and I found a technical problem that escapes my knowledge, I could not solve it and I flagellate myself internally for it. Anyway today I have dawned in some positive way, today the feminine energy filled my body since I got up. I have taken the day with relaxation. Right now there is nothing I can do to solve my problem (unless it occurs to me a priori). I had to do other things today.
After a relaxed morning in which I have been working more on the web I went for a conscious walk with Laura.
Today was one of the first times I went out in the street with sunglasses, ones that are comfortable and that I decided to use as a regular complement. It’s a good way to put an emotional barrier between you and the other people who cross you, to position yourself as an observer who doesn’t get too involved in the world, since you don’t reveal your gaze. My eyes have been protected from the sun as well, so I’ve killed two birds with one stone.
I began my walk in solitude for a brief moment. I walked under the canopies of the majestic trees of London Road Park. My steps rushed. I slowed down, wanted to absorb every detail of the road and feel the place. To be part of it at that moment. And so it was, my senses began to open up to the place, receiving its energy and adjusting our vibrational flows. When I met Laura we started talking.
Soon I was faced with the dilemma of whether a short conversation really walks the conscious. Silently and relaxed I listened Laura talk to me about how the challenge was going. Then I realized. As a Life Coach I have learned the indisputable value of really listening to someone. If while walking around. observing the world, you are also attentive to a person who accompanies you speaking, listening practically in silence, you are observing part of the world as well: The reality of that person, who on top of that is usually a friend. I discussed this with Laura and it made all the sense of the world. We continued walking towards the house of our friend Faracy, a witch and artist, who was going to give me one of her impressive works, Morrigan. At the meeting we walked around her house and planned the summer solstice ritual for the next day, with a bonfire on the beach and food.
I spent the rest of the afternoon making the video of the show with Laura, which served as a starting point for my reflection today. This day has been a bit introverted and reflective. I liked to summarize and explore the development of the challenge with Laura.
I did the meditation half an hour ago.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M0-OJURM80E
I have used this guided meditation to concentrate on it and not let my mind wander. What an experience. I have quickly stopped feeling my body and my mind has been carried away by the experience that the narrator elaborates. And I didn’t understand it 100%. I noticed my energy ascending and expanding. In the solar plexus chakra, the heart. After a while the third eye also began to make itself noticeable and by the end of the meditation I was seeing images of places I don’t know. A kind of airport/station with a high orange wall. The rest is concrete. Sunny place, warmer than Edinburgh.
Reflections: Having a reason to fight in your daily life is important to go to bed satisfied, if you fulfill your reason. The challenge and this project are now my most important objective, I have to make the most of it so that it really is brilliant; but with meaning, profound, because it also transforms me and my sensitivity grows.
Just before starting today’s conscious walk, I used my Gaia oracle to get some advice, a reflection of my heart. The letter that appeared was Winter’s End . It refers to the end of winter and a hard time. The force begins to unleash itself in nature to fill it with treasures. I feel that it is a very appropriate card. These past days I have been thinking a lot about my relationships with men. In my relationship with myself and what I feel when I am alone. I feel powerful and delighted to be free of ties, with a thousand plans and dreams!
This strength comes to me because, finally, I am fulfilling my reason to fight: Create something new/Learn something new/ Expand myself.
Guided meditation is something that everyone who starts meditating should try, there are hundreds on Youtube.
