Today the world outside doesn’t make any sense to me. Everything I feel is so messed up that I can’t reason properly. I tried to go outside for the conscious walk and all those people around made everything claustrofobic.
Is it possible to be conscious when too emotional? And is a conscious walk also necessarily an objective one? Mine today surely wasn’t. Everything looked like an obstacle, not a chance of moving forward. Backing up and running. Birds flying hardly against the wind.
Only on Calton Hill a little peace. Two magpies standing together on the same branch, and a robin Staring at ME.
I feel the bitterness that comes with the acceptance of change. Sadness filled me up with love yesterday, but waking up today the reality looks empty.
Moving forward, leaving things behind, ignoring the voice that would keep you in the old state’s sweet comfort. I meditated 30 minutes and only with the Om chanting I made it. During the meditation the energy was strong in my hands and I kept hearing the sound of my favourite song, telling me that everything is going to work out fine.
