I woke up and gave myself Reiki, which was a good idea. It helps dealing with the pain and my mental state is still strong despite this powerful wave of change we are still in.
I went to the Kingdom of Fife today, where there was an open studios festival all over the little town of Lower Largo. I was with my Reiki teacher Joy and I also met her teacher David there, talking a bit about how to deal with empathy and checking different tools, including herbal sprays, to ground yourself better everyday.
I started practicing an exercise with the solar plexus, under David’s advise… And I feel more grounded, yes. But also my sadness has become more bitter. I suppose it’s part of the normal process of healing, but it still sucks.
Once back in Edinburgh I walked almost an hour to reach Calton Hill, passing through the Botanical Gardens. I was feeling sad but the tears wouldn’t come out. I focused on the way, the trees, the birds, so predominant today. On top of Calton Hill a large group of seagulls was circling up high, making beautiful white patterns on the blue empty sky.
I meditated 15 minutes on my stone and was visited by two nice little spiders.
I went to pick up Susana to go for dinner at a friend’s place, and I had a couple of whiskeys to loosen the pain in my chest. The walk to the dinner was fun, we laughed and felt each other’s mood and, almost at the end, took 2 parallel streets as she wanted to pass in front of a house she used to live in and I didn’t… I waited for her to come back for a bit, I was feeling quite amused and took it out on a few seagulls beating each other up to eat an entire baguette.
I met her a bit further down on the road, where she told me she was waiting for me on her side of the road, as well, shouting at stupid seagulls, as well. True sinchronicity!
The dinner was fun, and I definitely drank too much tonight. Spirits.
