I crave time alone, I feel bored and all the efforts of my friends to distract me only seem to make things worse. I love seeing them and see our intuition and synchronicity flow, no matter what. Everyone around me has been truly patient and amazing, but somehow I’m frozen inside, overloaded by emotions I can see but I can’t feel.
I walked a bit towards the park, enjoyed the freshness of the wind and the light rain, enjoyed being outside despite the weather inevitably moving towards a chill and autumn-ish temperature. I checked the birds flying around, but far, people were not too many and they all kept their distance. I feel like I’m moving on a different dimension, I’m not grounded. Even though my mind is sharp now, and I see why I react (or not) in different ways, this lack of emotions is worrying me.
I went back and ate and tried 40 minutes meditation with Reiki. The start was ok but daydreaming took over in the second part. I’m very grateful the challenge is not over, as I need to practice more and more to get back in contact with myself.
