A chaotic day, happily in control of my feelings for once. It was still hard to get out of bed, but I managed some yoga and a shower before the events of the day would “steal” my attention. However, I didn’t do anything I was planning as the outside world claimed my attention for the whole day.
Many friends texted me to have news, or invite me out, or to tell me about themselves. Work was super busy and it went fast, and I didn’t have time for myself at all. I had dinner with 3 of my friends that normally don’t go out much, being a bit nurse-like, but also feeling kind of proud and like I’ve accomplished something by putting them together and bringing them out.
After dinner we had drinks, Vincent and I walked back home and followed the road to Arthur’s Seat, to enjoy the freshness of the night. I hated seeing plastic and rubbish flowing around in the whirlwind, when did Edinburgh become so dirty? There were also some clouds and stars in-between them, and walking along the ex-volcano, and the silent trees and the empty road felt good and powerful at the same time. While walking we found a girl lying on the sidewalk, she was crying and having a panic attack because she couldn’t find her phone. We stayed with her and helped her up, as it was windy and cold we convinced her to walk towards a bus stop and go home. This interrupted my conscious walk, but it felt good to be able to talk her out of her stressful mind state, and get back in control of herself.
The flower pot on my windowsill forgot that summer is over, and it’s apparently exploding with new flower buds. I look at it and feel admiration for this resilience, against all odds. I’m back now, time for meditation and I’ll add Reiki to it, as I need to wash this chaotic day off.
