I had been connecting with the little child I was once. How tender in the inside, sometimes oversensitive to others, scared by shadows at night. I was really soft but my aim to share my creativity and to speak my ideas was strong.
I learned to feel strong and ignore that softness. The bullying in the highschool and well my personality has been build showing the strong side, the one who doesn’t give a fuck. But do I give a fuck? YES. I am the same freaking softy inside, and years after the soft part is taking over. For two days my feelings are just flooding me with emotion. Every personal comment or interaction towards me that is negative,violent or unfair it does Hurt. I feel the weigh of the Hurt in fact.
The walk was along Calton Hill & London Road Gardens. Autumn is in the air and some leaves. It was great to just wander, it really does something to your psyche. Golden leaves on the trees and chilling winds.
The meditation was opening the Pandora BoX. The ran at the beginning of the post is the result of the meditation.
