Day 36th

The love ritual I did with some friends is manifesting. Suddenly love tests me. Ignorant and unfortunate comments from a stellar lover have turned my bowels upside down and thrown dirt on the wound. The night was intensely entertaining, and the post-night has had a number of repercussions on my psyche. Basically has touched emotional issues that I have to heal in this life, understand and accept … and when you touch those issues you touch what belongs to you, somehow, if you live, is yours. Today was recording day in Roslin. Day of adventure. When I arrived at the hostel to pick up Laura I met an arbitrary girl, who started a conversation with…

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Day 35th

Today I did my meditation along with my friend Mireia. We picked a guided meditation that was about finding your guardian angel. I quickly get into it and the feeling was just amazing. After that we walked in the sunshine for 30 minutes. Is cool to walk with her because we let the silence flow too naturally, without any tension. Everyone was out in the sun; you never know how long is going to last. We finish the walk just by sitting on the grass and observing more the world. I was working night shift today. It was really busy. Before the Challenge and night like this would mean dynamite for my mood, but today…

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Day 34th

My mood is in what I call stanby. I feel good about myself and my surroundings, with their more and their less. I worked half the day and the bar was a bit crowded, so it happened fast. Although when there is a crowd it is something that affects my psyche, and I feel it a lot at the moment, this time it has not been like that. I have smiled all the time because it came out of my heart to smile at the customers. Not all of them, those who seemed like good people to me. When I finished I had a drink at the bar and my friend Giovanna arrived shortly after…

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Day 33th

My conscious walk started at 6 when I left my flat with my friend Mireia to go to her place. It has been raining half of the day; scottish weather, 4 seasons 1 day you see. We prayed for the water not to catch us... but the Gods had planned. Main colors were Purple and yellow, but in the end, red. I felt very powerful, but of femenine energy. I did 15 min meditation listening to my new favorite mantra Ajai Alai , how nice is ! Then the adventure started. It was pissing down. I used to say and think, when I was a child that rain was caused by angels peeing. Well yesterday…

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Day 32th

I started today's challenge with my conscious walk. I went to my friend Faracy's house, as we were both participating in a cabaret she was organizing, with the central theme "My life as a weirdo". I decided to participate because I had never participated in anything like this and I wanted to break my comfort zone. The walk started at London Road Park. The trees embraced me quickly and my mind cleared, although I must admit that I was thinking about how to make the representation and surely was not as attentive yesterday. I looked at the area of the city that has always seemed very dull, lifeless and many closed premises, however I like…

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Day 30th

Ajai Alai - Invincible, Indestructible. Abhai Abai - Fearless, Unchanging. Abhoo Ajoo - Unformed, Unborn. Anaas Akaas - Imperishable, Etheric Aganj Abhanj - Unbreakable, Impenetrable. Alakkh Abhakkh - Unseen, Unaffected. Akaal Dy-aal - Undying, Merciful Alaykh Abhaykh - Indescribable, Uncostumed. Anaam Akaam - Nameless, Desireless. Agaah Adhaah - Unfathomable, Incorruptible. Anaathay Pramaathay - Unmastered, Destroyer. Ajonee Amonee - Beyond birth, Beyond silence. Na Raagay Na Rangay - Beyond love, Beyond color. Na Roopay Na Raykhay - Beyond form, Beyond shape. Akarmang Abharmang - Beyond karma, Beyond doubt. Aganjay Alaykhay - Unconquerable, Indescribable. This is the mantra that has sounded for 30 minutes in my meditation today. Prior to the meditation I prepared an altar with…

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Day 29th

Yesterday I went to sleep at night and today I got up early to go to the airport. Another day of little sleep and my body rebels. I feel exhausted, a little ugly, weak and generally lacking in vital spark. Today will be the day I recover sleep with luck. My conscious observation has been somewhat strange today. Since the plane was delayed by more than an hour, I was unable to take a 30-minute walk in a row, it was impossible for me to get home to eat and go to work… However, I have watched the world attentively. Conscious observation seems to integrate as the way we see the day to day, but…

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Day 28th

Last day of my holidays. I enjoyed being with my family and learnt about myself. I have to admit keeping the Challenge was challenging sometimes... specifically on travelling days. My feelings are quite present which makes me feel like an actual human being alive. I did my conscious walk with my father & Noa, his dog, in the forest that surronds my parents second home. It has been a cool walk, very warm, I miss so much walking with a dog, perfect companion to have improvised adventures. Walking with my father was cool too because we both like to try new paths in the forest and is the kind of person who speaks about what…

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Day 27th

I am very tired today. Yesterday I'd met a guy at the Grand Bazar and last night after my meditation I met him. Did not have much sleep last night. Said that I will proceed to quickly describe how the conscious observation of the world happened. My feelings are getting stronger but. My emotions are very clear and vivid, but I feel I can control them easy if I keep by focus on them, acknowledge them. I am discovering who I really am emotionally because day after day feeling is more present and less sensible to be affected by the general vibe of the environment. I feel empowered in my heart. Don't really understand the…

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