Today I was off, but I woke up in a bad mood. I just had a nightmare in which a friend was dead, and his ghost was staying in my bedroom. He asked me if he could turn the light off, but I was scared that if he did he would disappear forever and I asked him not to.
I started the meditation feeling sad and I didn’t really want to do it, I just wanted to get that part of the challenge “out of the way”. It didn’t really help obviously, and especially the last part was full of unnecessary thoughts. I tried to do some yoga as well and put my incense on, but despite yoga being good, my mood kept low.
I went out and I didn’t want to do much, I decided to try a new café because I didn’t eat or drink anything yet. I tried this very central place that I always walked by but never got in and I took a coffee and a piece of cake. The cake wasn’t amazing, the coffee lousy and I didn’t like the music they were playing. For mysterious reasons, though, I really LIKED the place.
My mood went back up and stayed up for the rest of the day, just tired but in tune with everything. I met my boyfriend and we went for a reading lunch/afternoon in a café (which we do often, cause we are both book nerds). I still felt tired so in the late afternoon I took a nap, and in the evening I went for my walk to Calton Hill. The way up was quiet and I only heard bird calling each other, saw the grass moving in the wind and overlooked the occasional runes carved in the stones or walls with no apparent function. Fresh air, smelling like rain.
I had an amazing 15 minutes extra meditation on top of the hill, on my favourite stone. I connected to the hill and enjoyed the feeling of electricity going through my body, for some reasons my ears were burning hot.
I went slowly back and now I’m writing this post with a relaxation of mind that I thank this Challenge for giving me. Despite being bored and annoyed by the obligation, the reward at the end of the day is totally worth it.
