Meditation getting slightly easier, I tried 15 minutes when I woke up and another 30 minutes at the Salisbury Centre, where I went for the long neglected Friday lunch. Moments of white space, overcoming and ignoring the constant lamentation of the ego, are getting more frequent.
It was good to force myself into doing something with others, although I didn’t want to at first. It was also good to see and hug people that care for me. I couldn’t help but notice that they all looked exausted and tired. Obviously the past month has been a great energy shift for everyone. The garden looked beautiful and tempting, but I felt still tired and in need of sleep, so I went back for a nice afternoon nap.
At 8pm I went to Calton Hill for a bit more of conscious walk (although I tried some on the way to the Salisbury Centre in the morning). Today, what I saw was aggressive, with strong contrast of colours: red/orange, green/black, red/purple… It was very tiring and I felt drained pretty fast.
Birds and butterflies were flying over my head again, I feel like some kind of connection is been established again, slowly, between me and the flow. My new roots are very delicate, I can’t stand too much of the world around, but at least they made their appearance. I need to go to the woods.
