Emotions were switched off inside me, today, like everything was finally put at rest. I could feel people around me, like a mirror, but (nicely enough) nothing in myself. It gave me some needed peace.
Meditation in the afternoon was good, the spine solid and my mind asking actively (and sometimes effectively) ego to shut up. I felt my body relaxing completely and my ears opening again. After work I went out for dinner with 2 friends who decided to take a burger challenge to share… I ate so much I still have stomach ache!
This means I spent my way back trying to calm the stomach, which ended up in a long, conscious walk to Calton Hill and around up until the supermarket, where I promised to myself to cook more and eat better. The air was fresh and cool, no birds around, a humid but light fog in the distance. Traffic light went green when I walked there! 15 more (hard) minutes of meditation before bed which were not easy at all… Honestly tired, but enjoying the little effort of doing something like the Challenge.
Time to heal my relationship with my body.
