I did my yoga, slowly. Forced myself into some Reiki and meditation for 15 minutes. It definitely worked on the moment, as I was able to feel something for a change. During the day the apathy has been back, though. I observe what happens to my body and ignore the negative thoughts that would have me quit before the end of the day. I wish I could say I’m at peace, but it’s more like resignation. And I don’t even care.
But I keep trying to take care of my body. I cooked proper food for both lunch and dinner, good veggies and hummus and cheese. I’ve been walking around in the strong wind and I enjoyed the freshness and the clear, defined colours on the horizon. The sea was particularly beautiful today, the shades of different depths well defined in light blue, blue and heavy grey. There was a lot of yellow on the hills and the grass all around. The end of Summer for another year.
I tried 15 minutes of meditation, but my mind wouldn’t shut off.. frustrated, I tried 15 more, adding Reiki to it.. the first 5 minutes worked out 5, then ego took over once again. I don’t feel angry about it though, just tired. I feel drained, I’ll go to sleep early.
