The love ritual I did with some friends is manifesting.
Suddenly love tests me. Ignorant and unfortunate comments from a stellar lover have turned my bowels upside down and thrown dirt on the wound. The night was intensely entertaining, and the post-night has had a number of repercussions on my psyche. Basically has touched emotional issues that I have to heal in this life, understand and accept … and when you touch those issues you touch what belongs to you, somehow, if you live, is yours.
Today was recording day in Roslin. Day of adventure.
When I arrived at the hostel to pick up Laura I met an arbitrary girl, who started a conversation with me and when I asked her, she turned out to be from the town of my expareja. The causes of life led to the situation that the girl had been with my ex-partner 3 weeks ago.
(Putting here a bonus context: This guy had been after me for two months to come back to me, wanting to propose to me to come back to him, and I said no because I felt it wouldn’t work. He finally managed to “break me up” again and get my feelings for him to flow. When I got it and made sure of it, it disappeared from my life. We were never geographically close, we are from two different worlds and dimensions and he has a long way to go. I didn’t know more about him and he didn’t answer any questions, the last thing he said to me was: I love you)
How wonderful life is sometimes, isn’t it?
Queen of cynicism mode on; it didn’t last long because of that, the emotional damage was done and had to be healed. Roslin and her life companions have helped to relativize it. The adventure and conscious walk of more than 30 minutes or 1 hour that I have done with Laura have made the energy flow and I would like to get rid of the emotional SHIT, the disgusting baggage that I don’t need in my psyche right now.
The forest was alive and I felt quite present, awake… the 15 minute meditation helped.
Laura and I checked each other’s impressions of emotional changes that were coincidental.
When a group of friends came back, they kidnapped me for a walk, a new conscious walk. In addition, we smoked marijuana, which made the sensory perception magnify. The whole way was an almost psychedelic experience, at the end of the way, in which everyone was thinking about their world and observing the environment, I came across an office with the name of my ex-partner.
There, maximum madness.
I write these lines just before giving myself a deserved rest, and performing the remaining 15 minutes of meditation.
Reflection: Ask the gods and you will receive from the gods.
