My mood is in what I call stanby. I feel good about myself and my surroundings, with their more and their less. I worked half the day and the bar was a bit crowded, so it happened fast. Although when there is a crowd it is something that affects my psyche, and I feel it a lot at the moment, this time it has not been like that. I have smiled all the time because it came out of my heart to smile at the customers. Not all of them, those who seemed like good people to me. When I finished I had a drink at the bar and my friend Giovanna arrived shortly after…

Ajai Alai - Invincible, Indestructible. Abhai Abai - Fearless, Unchanging. Abhoo Ajoo - Unformed, Unborn. Anaas Akaas - Imperishable, Etheric Aganj Abhanj - Unbreakable, Impenetrable. Alakkh Abhakkh - Unseen, Unaffected. Akaal Dy-aal - Undying, Merciful Alaykh Abhaykh - Indescribable, Uncostumed. Anaam Akaam - Nameless, Desireless. Agaah Adhaah - Unfathomable, Incorruptible. Anaathay Pramaathay - Unmastered, Destroyer. Ajonee Amonee - Beyond birth, Beyond silence. Na Raagay Na Rangay - Beyond love, Beyond color. Na Roopay Na Raykhay - Beyond form, Beyond shape. Akarmang Abharmang - Beyond karma, Beyond doubt. Aganjay Alaykhay - Unconquerable, Indescribable. This is the mantra that has sounded for 30 minutes in my meditation today. Prior to the meditation I prepared an altar with…

Yesterday I went to sleep at night and today I got up early to go to the airport. Another day of little sleep and my body rebels. I feel exhausted, a little ugly, weak and generally lacking in vital spark. Today will be the day I recover sleep with luck. My conscious observation has been somewhat strange today. Since the plane was delayed by more than an hour, I was unable to take a 30-minute walk in a row, it was impossible for me to get home to eat and go to work… However, I have watched the world attentively. Conscious observation seems to integrate as the way we see the day to day, but…

Last day of my holidays. I enjoyed being with my family and learnt about myself. I have to admit keeping the Challenge was challenging sometimes... specifically on travelling days. My feelings are quite present which makes me feel like an actual human being alive. I did my conscious walk with my father & Noa, his dog, in the forest that surronds my parents second home. It has been a cool walk, very warm, I miss so much walking with a dog, perfect companion to have improvised adventures. Walking with my father was cool too because we both like to try new paths in the forest and is the kind of person who speaks about what…

Wow today my heart chakra was so evident. I wanted everything to be nice. Negativity just feels so restraining, like is compromising my sense of freedom. Today my conscious observation was very long. It started in the Blue Mosque. It was supposed to be impressive, but the amount of works of conservation taking place on it made really hard to appreciate. Nice feeling though, I took a free copy of the Coran. Then we went to Aya Sofia. Incredible, the spiritual energy of the place is not very noticiable because nowadays its a museum, but you can feel the importance of the place. You feel that you are inside a symbol for humanity. Lots of…